It has been two weeks students have left, yet all the teachers are here, doing admin work and contemplating on the last nine months of workload that is now a history. May be some others are planning for their summer gateways. In my case, I am thinking of Ramadan. I thought I would go into a complete spiritual mode if I happen to be in the Middle East. Turned out I was wrong, I am still at work, and working for the upcoming semester which is not even near. I am not sad at this point, but I am not happy either. Of course, the diaspora blues are there when I missing my North American bunch of people and how we would team up to recite the Holy Quran and have arrangements for weekend Iftar parties. Kids will learn more about Islamic culture and history. Here I am missing all of that and I don’t know how to come up with a plan to bridge the spiritual gap I am feeling within.
Self-reflection is so important for me. I could do a million things, both at work or home being a working mom that I am, yet if I don’t pause and reflect, everything seems pointless. Every day I try to take some time aside and do this serious business of self-talking. The feeling I get after ten minutes of self-talk makes me grateful and thankful of everything that I have become and everything that is going on around. That said, may be the spiritual awareness is taking place deep inside of me while the subconscious mind is still trying to make sense of it. I am going to spend the next ten days of Ramadhan really soaking into this emotional, mental uplifting of my soul and more.